Ups and Drops

After everything being fin yesterday, at 04:00 (I went to bed at 02:30) my wife woke me and was feeling very bad - and for the last twelve hours she has been completely down for the count. I haven't got anywhere near as bad yet, so if it hits, it will be on top of four nights without enough sleep. I think I am averaging about 3 hours a night, plus a nap if I can get it. What has been nice is that Smallsteps has been very cooperative so far, even though she is getting bored and frustrated. What is also frustrating for my wife, is that as yesterday was a public holiday, she took today off of work so she could have a four day weekend - but now it is four days of illness. A bit of a waste.

Smallsteps went to a school disco.

She was so excited.

I took her there because it was absolutely pissing down (raining hard) and I didn't want her to walk. Not that the rain is much of an issue, but since she was ill a few days ago herself, I would rather make her life a little more comfortable at the moment - that and she has been such a good sport through these last few days. I have to give her some concessions sometimes.

The rain is actually welcome, because I get spring allergies and the last few days have been horrible. It is one of the other reasons that I am tired, because the medication I take all year is kicking in to try to combat the response, and it takes it out of me. I also had my injection for my stomach on Wednesday, which gives me a headache for a few days and makes me tired.

Lots of things stack up!

While it might sound like it, I am actually not complaining too much yet, but I haven't had a lot of time to myself either, which means I haven't had a chance to process my own thoughts and feelings, and this creates additional stress. Spending a few minutes writing about what is going on helps clear it out and in many respects, just accept life as it is. It is pretty easy to get caught up in the ebbs and flows, feeling them like crashing waves, without zooming out and seeing that it is not that bad. Focusing on each day seems like such wise advice, but it makes us hypersensitive to daily events, without recognising the overall trends.

At the moment, the overall trend feels pretty downward for me at the moment, but hopefully it is just another stage in life similar to what I have overcome before, and I have the energy to overcome again. It isn't always easy though, especially if these periods are sustained and over the space of years, because they grind a soul down and if there isn't respite, it will scrape until there is nothing left to give.

I was watching Bitcoin go up a little and I have very little hope that it is going to be sustained for a longer period of time, but perhaps I am wrong. I might not have any luck with health, but it would be nice to have a financial win at some point that could make my relatively ill-health feel a little more manageable. Stomach flus come and go - most of what I have I am stuck with.

We are all stuck in our own lives.

The least we can do is make the most of it.

Taraz
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