5 Minute Freewrite: discuss this more

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Discuss this more

What a great prompt. I get to decide what "this" is. So many things have been on my mind. Like, why do I get annoyed about the things I get annoyed about? Does it go back to my childhood, and some deep-seated somethings that I don't even know about? I don't want to say traumas, that seems overly dramatic for my particular circumstance. But just because I didn't experience extreme trauma as a child doesn't mean I didn't experience some...harm, I guess? Some harmful ways of thinking or behaving imposed on me because of harmful ways of thinking or behaving passed on to my parents from their parents and so back. I dunno. I just wonder, often, where guilt comes from. Like, if it's true that how we are is good and as long as we are not harming anyone, what we do is good, why do I still feel guilty when I feel like I'm not doing what someone else wants me to be doing? Like, I don't even know for sure if they want me to be doing the thing I feel guilty for not doing. I just think they do. I do too much thinking about what other people are thinking and wanting and maybe not enough direct asking, direct communication. I've got to trust that other adults are responsible for their own feelings and actions. But I think I often feel responsible for others' feelings, and I guess that's the biggest thing I need to unlearn from...from where? From my childhood? Perhaps. I don't know.