My story 2 part : Be a traitor, be the most beautiful

.... continued, it does not matter now! I got a job, you might give me some stability, and this is what really happened, I will be able to return to my city, I will wear a stylish suit worthy of an employee, I will quit alcohol, I will live happy, this happened for a few years, but what will happen after that will make my life absolutely bad,
I do not tell the story because there is something special in it that is not repeated in the rest of the stories, and I am not that person who believes that he achieved his dreams from a source of persistence from him and worked hard, and he stayed up late nights, I am not really successful in the matter, I am really a failure, and I want to talk about my failure, I have experienced Failed experiences and accompanied people who made me fail, and others I could not realize their exploitation of me until it was too late, and I seek to clarify the matter ... because my life after that will be a mixture of the world of alcohol and red nights and experiences with girls who put fate in my path and something that I thought was " the love " !
Has your outlook changed to me?

How can I not even despise myself .. Share your opinion, I was 23, and I thought I was mature, as happened to each of you, and as will happen to those who have not yet reached that age,
Your view of life at this age will differ from that of 30 years of course, but believe me that after the age of 23, you will live the hell of experiences and trauma in life, you will discover the mistakes of your fathers and your older brothers, you may despise them after you discover their mistakes in life, but soon you will commit worse than them You will hear stories about childhood friends and how so-and-so married so-and-so gave birth to children, so-so was his divorce, a friend who sent him to prison, and another who went mad, and that girl who loved her in high school and dreamed of living with her for the rest of your life at that time, she migrated with her husband to settle America! Hear the vegetable seller? But you will realize that you too, my friend, will have a story about which other people will either speak in a cafe or at a cabaret table! Just as you do ...
You will fight the battle of searching for self, you will hate yourself long before you love it again, you will love it only after long trouble!
1_Fat February 2020