What is your worth outside that test?

Hi Everyone, it's Abeegail again, welcome to my blog. How was your day, I'll go first to say mine was horrible. We had our first impromptu test of the semester. Since we are freshman, we were totally relaxed that our lecturer won't give us a test, since we were still getting used to the system of Uni, but to my utmost suprise, here I was with a piece of paper on my desk and pen in my hands writing my name and registration number.

It all started because, my lecturer asked a question that we didn't answer, or at least to his satisfaction so, he decided to give us the test, to put us on our toes. This was bad because, although I didn't get the results I know I didn't do well because I wasn't prepared and I know that I didn't write well. I could see my coursemate trying to cheat but even if I want to I couldn't because I was at the front.
Maybe I’m not smart enough. Maybe admissions made a mistake. Maybe everyone else has this figured out but me.
If you’re in college, chances are you’ve had—or will have—that moment.

When I got home I felt so bad and sad, like I wasn't smart enough, like I should have known better and prepared well, like I wasn't meant to be in Uni. Being one of the smart kid in secondary school, i felt like this shouldn't have been a struggle for me, I was so disappointed at myself. I talked to my siblings, who had been through all of this, and when I faced them the guilt and disappointment hit harder but they let me know that Uni wasn't meant to be easy, it is meant to stretch your understanding and thinking, that it's not all about vomiting what the lecturers say but understanding it.

My sister also said that, it was unfair to me if I let one test define my whole intelligence and self worth. Failing one test doesn't mean you're a failure, it just means that you have to sit up a little and get your head in the game. We often let one bad grade rewrite our whole academic life, and make that the living proof that we are not on the right path or an academic failure.

At the end of the day failure is not all bad, failure teach you things that success won't, like how to learn from past mistakes. Now you know what you misunderstood, what study method works best. Some of the best students aren't the ones that never failed but, the ones who learn to recover from them. You are not you grades, and your grades should never define you. College isn't about perfection but persistence.

It's still Abeegail ✨💗
Still trying to find worth outside school

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